Tricks are for Kids!

I am sitting here listening to my new favorite singer, Jack Johnson. He is very interesting and I love his style of music it is not to often that I actually buy a CD but I found him to be worthy of my twelve dollars. I am doing the hardest thing I have ever had to do since my escape from the womb. I am pretending not to care about Chris anymore. Just by not being like “Why did you say you would call me and not” or “How come you have not called me once since we broke up?” or “How come you can make it to town to take a foreign lady to the mall to get a dress yet we broke up because I couldn’t see you once a week!” So I’m really not ok with it and that is why its so hard to ignore all the stuff he does. He still likes me but if he did we would be together…right? I feel like being alone all the time, I want to break the battery in my phone, move to Australia and live there while not telling anywhere one where I am they can just assume me dead for all I care. I have been checking into psychiatrists lately not because of anything major I just have not been happy for a long time, even when I laugh I am still not really happy. I don’t know my problem is. I can’t talk to my friends because I don’t believe they are being truthful because they are my friends. I don’t know if I am actually going to do it or not but it might be good for me. Maybe I really just need a life coach or something instead. I don’t really know. On the plus side………actually as soon as I find something I will write about the plus side.