Hard times, (no pun intended)
Me and Chris faught a lot over the Jordan thing, he refused not to hang out with Jordan and I refused to let him. I eventually felt bad and asked to compromise that he could hang out with Jordan but just not in his bedroom alone with him. A reasonable request and very generous I thought, but he still told me he would hang out with him whenever he wants. I was eventually left with the decision to break up with him. I wrote him a letter on one page of paper double sided saying how its not just Jordan but his refusal to even compromise which I believed to be an important. But I couldnt do it, I like him a lot but I Couldnt do it. I was scared and dont know what else I was feeling but I didnt want to break up with him. Later on we talked and I told him about the letter and I asked him if it came to us breaking up or him seeing Jordan what he would pick. He told me he would stop seeing Jordan but he would be very mad at me for a while. As mean as that was I was happy and deceided I would just blindly trust him and hope for the best. Lately he has been weird, he works a summer job at the lake and told me he would only get to see me once every two weeks. He promised to see me on monday and I called him at eight and he was at the lake (45min away). I reminded him he promised me to see me that night and he got super mad but came to visit me. He told me he didnt like my attitude the night before so that is why he went to the lake.....But he came in and was pissy all night then left for work in the morning. So now I just expect to see him once every two weeks. I asked to see him once a week and he thought that would be to much. He also doesnt want me to get mad when he comes in once a week and does something else besides see me. I dont know what kind of relationship this is. Who says those kinds of things and refuses to come visit someone. He has to come home every morning to work his other job here so there really isnt a reason for him to come back at night other then he is tired. Tonight we talked for two minutes then he had to shower he was going to call me before he went to bed....he "promised" but you know how that goes I guess I will just see him tomorrow after he sees all his friends if he has time and isnt to drunk..........

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