New Goals

SO I have been doing some self-realization with a little help from my friend Lindsay. She tells me that I am comparing everyone I meet or go on a date with to Chris and as long as I do this I will not be happy. I went on a date last night, with a guy named Nick. He was very nice we hads lots in common and he was also cute. But I did not like him at all any other way as a friend. Which is fine but I dont think I could like anyone any other way as a friend. So now I dont know if its just that I have not met the right kind of person or if I am crazy and not allowing myself to like anyone else. I don't really know what direction my life is heading right now but if I ever get back with Chris I will have to remember to thank him for the great job of fucking me up like that. He did it so well. On a lighter note I am super tired from being up until four or so, got up and ready for work got there at ten, then realized that I switched shifts and dont work until one. Now I cannot sleep because I am all ready up and now I am thinking about Chris, Hopefully this blogg helps me get it off my chest.