Entry One

I have had so much to say lately and I felt really restricted because of whom reads my blogg, so of course I do what I always do, change my blogg and tell everyone that I deleted it. If I give you the link then I think you are someone special who I care about and what they have to say. First off I miss you Brandi I know you have been going through lots of trouble, and it has made you raise the question, "how do I know it will get better?" and my answer is you dont. But what fun will your life be to think the other way? I believe everything happens for a reason, and if something bad happens it may seem bad but you never know what will come of it. Three years is a long time to give up, but its not the sum of your life. So be miserable because it will take a long time for you to be better, but I cant wait until your smiling again. :) Second off me and Chris are doing ok, when I went to Florida it turns out he hung out with Jordan, who is his x-boyfriend whom I hate even before I met Chris. Sometimes Jordan calls and I get so pissed at him for answering we wont even talk the rest of the night. Whats worse is he lied to me and didnt tell me he was over there, Jordan told my roommate who told me. That is just how Jordan is, Chris told me Jordan always does this to break him up with people, and my response was "THEN WHY DO IT"

I was so angry when I asked him I was on my way to class and started crying, I couldnt go to class so I went to my friend Kristina's I missed a quiz, but oh well. She made me feel a little better but she told me I should break up with him, but I didnt want to do that after all he just was friends with Jordan. But its so hard to trust him again, I am so angry at him for breaking that. He didnt even seem to care when I finally called to talk to him, he was just like "so what do you want to not hang out tonight or not see me or what?" but he said it all sarcastic, that made me more mad. Things are better now he promised never to talk or see Jordan (again) so I will have to see how it goes this time. I think this is a bad time of year everyone seems to be having many problems so cheerup everyone, Brad-Jenny-Brandi.